Matthew 6:34 says...

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own."

This verse has seem to fit the past few weeks or months I should say. It seems like everyone is going through trials and tribulations recently. It is so hard to see your friends and family suffer. Of course, being a woman, if you cry, I tend to cry also. People have lost loved ones, family members being sick, just sadness, it already seems like the holiday blues are hitting everyone also. There are times I just want to wave a magic wand and make everything disappear.

For me, I think the realization of the holidays coming up without a few important people being present is hitting me. For the first time in 5 years, for me anyways, Michael's Grandpa won't be there for Thanksgiving. Every year we go down to Arkansas for 4 days. It will just be a completely different atmosphere. Having someone that you are so use to be around, not be there. He was always so much fun when we watched football, worked on the yard or even when we all were playing with the kids. Not having him at the head of the table will just not be right. I couldn't even imagine having someone else sit there. Plus seeing how heartbroken Gigi is. Somedays, I feel like she is just lost. It's the worst feeling seeing it. I can't even imagine my life without Michael. I don't want to think of that day.

Then on the other end, my Grandma. I still get emotional about that one. There have been days where I just cry thinking she is not here. Again, happening now. Ugh. What is wrong with me? I think too maybe, it's because she was the last Grandparent on my Dad's side. Not having that, I can't even explain it. Just the feeling of having your Grandparents around. There is a different emotion you have and a different bond you share with them. It's on a different level. Not having that, it's heart wrenching. I am still working through it. I didn't think it would change me this much. I still have no idea how I might react on Christmas. I know she is in a much better place and so is Grandpa Jim but, I just wish they could come down and visit!

Plus, we have something else that started today. I am not quite sure where it's going and it's even scarier to me then what I have gone through in the past few months. All I can do is pray for strength for not just myself, but my family.

My heart goes out to everyone that is going through something right now. And believe me, that is quite a few of the people I love. But, God doesn't give us more then we can handle. I always have to remember, that even if I am just at the bottom of the barrel, there is someone that probably has it worst. I just need to remember that when I have something minor come up. It's not quite as bad as it could be. As for the hard stuff, well, faith and family (including friends) are probably the best medicine.

This is now on our fridge to remind us everyday where we can go if we think we have had enough.

"Come to me, all you are weary and burdened and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28