Last night in a silent house.

I am sitting here, in the quiet, just relaxing with my feet up, wondering what it will be like on Friday when we are all home. When I say all, I mean, the 4 of us (yikes) and the dogs. Our family of 3, well 6 with the animals, will become a family of 4 (7 with the mammals). My c-section got pushed up from 10AM to 8AM so we now have to be at the hospital at 6AM. That means my alarm is set for 4:15AM. That already makes me nervous. With the time being moved up, Jake went to go stay with my parents tonight. I already miss him. I think I will miss him terribly over the next few days. Not being able to tuck him in, wake him up, listen to him talk non stop, playing...ugh. I already miss it now. The dogs have been shipped off to the kennel until Friday. They are already living it up and having a blast. Figures. So the house is silent. The most silent it will be for a long time. To be honesty I am wigging out. I feel like I am about 15 minutes from just breaking down and crying. I am nervous for the surgery for starters. I don't want to vomit, I hope the spinal goes okay, and I pray that the surgery goes according to plan. I know things don't always go as you want them to but I really hope tomorrow does. I am also getting nervous about what he looks like. Is he healthy? How big is he? Are we sure it's a he? I have a million and one things running through my head and I hope I can just fall asleep tonight. I better be able to. I also have a nose thing going on. I don't have a cold or a sore throat but my nose is stuffed up something fierce and it's really causing me to not sleep well. Like I need that. I shouldn't be worried about it and I know God has a plan for everything. I am just hoping that tomorrow He will give me the comfort and strength I need to make it through the day. I am just praying for calm nerves at this point. I want to have a light heart and be relaxed and joyful tomorrow. Next time I write, we will have a new Janzen to talk about! =)