Who needs sleep right? I think waking up 4-6 times a night is worse then just getting 7 hours of light sleep. They say you have vivid dreams when you are pregnant. I had a few with Jake. I think the most insane one I had was a T-Rex was reeking havoc on downtown Des Moines and somehow Lucas killed him. It was just way beyond anything I have ever dreamed before in my life.The people, the scenario, the hero, the villain, and half the time I think it was in 3-D. Well this time around, I get them at the least 3 times a night. They are all different. I wake up between each one and they never have a common link. I wake up for about 2-3 minutes in between, then they start all over again. If I could remember them and write them down, I would. I could make money on them. I tell you what, I have one crazy imagination. People appear that I haven't seen for 10-15 years. People I completely forgot about. I would love to just go to bed and wake up at 4:50 AM. No dreams, no wake ups, just sleep. I feel like I have only received about 2 hours of sleep. It is really causing me to dislike work. I think mainly because I am tired so my annoyance level increases for immaturity and stupidity 200%. There I said it. I'm constantly bombarded with both at work. I just keep thinking: "__ amount of days till break". That is what keeps me going. Sad but true. I loathe walking into that place everyday. The only thing that keeps me going is the people. Even then, Mrs Flatness is leaving me in 7 days. I am going to cry. I cannot manage that. I will explode. Who in the world is going to really get me? Just not fair! The amount of immaturity I have to deal with or see everyday makes me think that High School was never that bad. The circus we work in, it's just, mind boggling. Don't get me wrong, not everyone is "clown" material but there are days. I need a ray of hope! Also, it seems all our underwriters, okay, 75% of them are thinking they are the cats meow and can get away with walking all over everyone. They all think they are the most important and that they deserve all the attention. I feel like I'm working with a bunch of 2 year olds. I get a headache just thinking about it. Recently it seems like they want us to do everything for them, including wiping their butts. Now I will say it is not all of them. I love a few of them. They keep me going. Just the issues I have been dealing with recently are just insane. The "cheating" is becoming a little out of hand. If we are not competitive, just let it go. Stop trying to give it away. This will not work and will backfire! Again, tiredness and hormones are probably making it sound worse then it is.
Enough said on that. I just had a horrible day today and needed to vent a little! I could have gone way more into detail and all that but I really don't feel like it. I just need to take it one day at a time and breathe. Just breathe.
1 comment:
hey buddy i am going to miss you something fierce too!! your exactly right who is going to get you?? or for that matter who is going to get me?? other than them all thinking i am the crazy old broad who sits by conference room 522.. time will fly by for both of us, but you will have alot more fun with your new babe, than me with a new hip bone!!!
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