1 week

How can 38 weeks pass by so quickly, yet seem to take forever at the same time? Hopefully (we better) have a new little Janzen by this time next week! I think it is about to hit me. I am way emotional about it. I don't know if it's stress, just being scared (surgery wise), or the fact we are adding another little one into the house. If I think about it too much, I will cry. That is one thing I will not miss about being pregnant! I see a Hallmark commercial or a Folgers commercial and I have tears streaking down my face. It's not right. I have my final doctor appointment tomorrow. It's our pre-op appointment so it's about an hour long and we go over everything for next Monday. I hope I don't break down in the doctors office. I am sure I have gained like 30lbs in one week. I am not even kidding. The kid has dropped so I have an appetite now. Took 38 weeks but now I'm starving all the time. Thanksgiving didn't help either. I loathe the holidays for it's awesome foods and sweets. 

We are trying to get Jake ready. He knows he has a brother coming and is very excited about it. We are just trying to explain that it's happening next week. It's all hypothetical until that little one is here and crying that he will realize it! He keeps saying how he wants to help with baths, diapers and feeding. We will see how he feels after his brother arrives. We are trying to plan something fun to do as a family this weekend for Jake. I might want to get on that!

The name. We have had quite a few people ask about the name. Sorry, but it's under lock and key. Ok, so a few family members and good friends know but that is it. A little about the name though. We love the nickname or short name we are going to call him. It is the only reason he has a full name. I would just keep it the 3 letters but Michael wants the 6 full letters. I will say it's a common name currently. We got a little different with the spelling and he is our child so I don't really care if anyone else has the name. It works! Jake of course loves it. He's been calling him by his name since we figured out. Hence why family members know. I had to run it by my BFF's when I first fell on it so they of course know. This time next week, we hope to have it out there!

I still have to pack. That is the worst task ever for the hospital. You never know what you will all need. We also have to pack up Jake for a few day stay at my parents house. I will wait till the last possible moment for both. I had to order a few new pairs of pants and tanks and I pray they will be here on time. I am keeping my fingers crossed they get here by Saturday. Otherwise, I might be in trouble. Oh well, I'll make it work! I feel like I have a ton to do but I really don't. Other then packing up myself, Jake and Michael, I don't have much going on. I have a scarf I have to finish, or at least try to finish by Wednesday but maybe if I don't get it done I can finish it and bring it to the hospital for when she comes to visit. I worked on it for 2 hours today. It is taking forever. I went with a much thinner yarn due to they are odd colors that are hard to find. Luckily I am off work right?

So here is to the next 7 days. May they take a while, yet go quickly! =)

Thanksgiving 2010

It was a very different Thanksgiving for us. Just being home for the whole weekend was....amazing. Being able to be together as a family and just relax, it was priceless! 

Thursday we got up pretty early, still sleeping in compared to a normal day. I started cooking and baking pretty quickly. I didn't have much to do but I wanted to get it done and ready. We had lunch at my sisters house at noon and it was of course, amazing. Thanksgiving dinner has to be the most amazing meal of the year. We need to do it more often then once! After dinner the boys all went to Bass Pro Shop and spent a few hours running off steam. Michael called his family down in Arkansas and for the first time in...well, forever, they were trapped. Turns out rain and ice hit them hard and Grandma couldn't even get to their house for Thanksgiving. When Michael talked to her she had made a hamburger on her Foreman for lunch. Poor Gigi. We spent the afternoon going through adds and nibbling on left overs and pies. It was a very relaxing afternoon with family. I enjoyed every second of it!

Friday, well, that is what I call a waste of a day. We did nothing. Literally nothing. AND IT WAS AWESOME!!! I am not lying on this. We stayed in sweats all day, cleaned up a bit, and just spent the day as a family. It was heavenly! A very much needed day of nothing. I would like this to be every Friday. 

Saturday we actually had to look "alive". We ran a few errands and did our normal Saturday routine. For the afternoon Connor and Charlotte came over. Jake had a blast. Other then the baby powder fight, it was a good time. Even though Charlotte is almost 1, it was nice having a baby around. After Chris came and got the kiddos we cleaned up and Jake had a fantastic time in the bath! The rest of the evening consisted of dinner, playing with Jake and after he retired to bed, Michael and I watched a sappy Christmas movie on the Hallmark Channel. Don't repeat this, but Michael loves the Hallmark Channel at Christmas time. He loves the movies. It makes me laugh. Mainly they all have happy endings and make you feel all warm inside. So we canoodled up by the tree and watched a movie. It was perfection!

Today was a normal day. Trying to get back into our normal routine. It feels weird actually being Sunday. Mainly because the last 4 days have felt like Sunday. Michael and Jake both took long naps and are now running around like kids! Football has been watched, cookies have been baked, and now the final week is upon us. This is the last week of us being a family of 3. That is extremely scary and exciting to think about! We are just taking it one day at a time.

Here are some recent photos that have been snapped around here.

Found Jake with the stockings!

The boys at Thanksgiving

Caleb

The boys!

My little boy

Kinnick though Jake's fish was really food, then he slept on it

Zoey and Michael

 This kid and his static electricity. His hair looks like this 90% of the day!

Michael and Charlotte, so adorable!

I love her!

I have been a gigantic fan of this lady for a few weeks now. It started November 1st and every commercial has been absolutely fantastic! Her workouts and game plans....they are just fantastic. This card one takes the cake! I saw this commercial on Black Friday and about peed my pants! I couldn't stop laughing! Mainly because I could see myself and a few of my friends doing this! I will miss her after Christmas and I hope she returns next year!

Holiday Flicks

With late night feedings and a lovely incision that is limiting my mobility, I have found myself watching movies like a mad person. I am excited because I am getting my fix in of holiday movies. I have quite a few that I love and have to watch around the Christmas season. Usually I have to keep watching them into January but due to maternity leave, I have watched almost all!

Movies I have to watch at Christmas time:

While You Were Sleeping

Elf

A Christmas Story

Love Actually

Funny Farm 

Home Alone and Home Alone 2

National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation

The Polar Express

Babes in Toyland (ft Keanu Reeves and Drew Barrymore. Keep laughing, it's okay.)

A Charlie Brown Christmas

Die Hard and Die Hard 2 (What? They take place on Christmas Eve!)

Rudolf the Red-Nosed Reindeer

How The Grinch Stole Christmas (Ft Jim Carrey)

It was bound to happen....

It's that time of the year again! When you get on KCCI.com and there are weather alerts. You click on that one link that says "Road Conditions" and get into a little funk. Get ready Iowans! It's just the beginning!

Something new

This year is marks a new peg. It's the first time in 7 years we are not traveling south to Arkansas for Thanksgiving. With my due date a week and a half away, we thought it best to not travel down. I really do not need an Arkansas birth thank you! Michael still makes fun of me and says it answers a few questions that I was born in Missouri. Har Har. I will miss the warmth. It is usually 20+ degrees warmer down there. Take today. They high down in Bella Vista is 71 degrees. Yes it may be rainy but that is a whole lot better then the current 27 degrees it is out now. Our high for Thanksgiving is 21. Are you kidding me?! I expect that on Christmas Day, not Thanksgiving. The high down there is at least 42! The first year we aren't going down and they are actually suppose to receive a rain/ice mix on Friday. The whole town will shut down if it happens! With us not going down it frees us up for the whole Thanksgiving, 4 day weekend. Well, not 4 day for me but for Michael. I'm on a 64 day vacation! 

Wednesday. Normally at this time we are packing up the car and driving down south. The whole day of Wednesday was spent driving down. Today Micheal is working which he never has done before the day before. I get to spend the day baking and relaxing. I do have a doctors appointment but that isn't till 4. A day that use to be pretty stressful turned into a day of relaxation. I welcome it!

Thursday. Usually the men (Chuck, Dave, Michael and Andy) would spend the morning cleaning up Grandma's yard while the women cooked and took care of the young ones. We usually ate around 1 and then crashed. Tomorrow, different story. Michael gets to relax on a day off! He is a tad bit excited about it! I have to cook 1 thing for lunch and it's crock pots job! We are heading over to my sisters at noon to eat our selves out of our pants and I am so looking forward to it. Being pregnant over Thanksgiving has it's perks! Although, I am getting to that point where I am running out of room so I don't eat as much. I will just have to snack throughout the day. The rest of the afternoon will be spent with football and my family. We haven't had a Thanksgiving together, well, ever since Michael and I got together. I think we need to start alternating. Especially since we have children now. 

Friday. Black Friday. No one in Michael's family is very gung-ho on Black Friday shopping. Now, I do have all my Christmas presents bought, wrapped and under the tree but I still love going early in the morning! My dad and did it a few times when we I lived at home and loved it! The people alone are insane and I love it! I don't even need to buy anything but if we come home with a new TV or something along those lines, oh well. I have quite a few things saved in "checkout boxes" at a few places online. Let's hope they don't crash! Most of the items are hoodies and comfy pants for the hospital. Also, GAP is needing pajama outfits for 14-19 year old woman for a organization in Des Moines. I need to pick some of those out. I believe Old Navy is having crazy deals on PJ's! 

We then will just have a normal weekend!! We are already 95% done decorating and all done with wrapping gifts! I have a few homemade ones to finish up and the weekend will hopefully be perfect for it! I also have an idea or two for some last minute gifts. I also have to think of a few gifts for our white elephant Christmas party in December with friends. Looking forward to that evening!! Odd to think we will have another baby at that time!

I will miss the time in Arkansas with Michael's family. I know Jake will miss time with his cousins. I will miss the warmer weather and the hours of playing football. I am embrace the change in scenery for this Thanksgiving and I am thankful for so many things! We are truly blessed!

Thank you!

I may get flack from this due to a few family members being fans but I would like to thank Richard Seymour for finally doing what millions have wanted to do for a while. Punch Ben Roethlisberger in the face. First off his last name is a pain in the butt to spell. Rothlessburger. That is how it should be spelled. It makes him sound like a horrible piece of steak that no one will eat. Second, the guy is a douche. I am sorry but he is. His past actions and attitude has really turned me off to anything he has ever done. I would gladly take the $25,000 fine for letting him have it. That man makes my skin crawl. 

I also have an idea. This whole helmet to helmet situation. I witnessed a few fines that were given as a result from some games this weekend and started thinking about this situation. They started fining players for unnecessary helmet to helmet contact. I think it has prevented some but not all cases. There are some hot heads on the football field. My proposal is this: Whoever you hit helmet to helmet, you pay them the $35,000 instead of the NFL. I am sure players will knock that off immediately. Losing your money to the NFL isn't as depressing and losing it to another player. Just an idea.

Again, thank you Richard Seymour! I owe you one! =)

HP and a few other things

Friday was my last day. It went well. Very quick and busy. Turns out somehow my time is all messed up and the nurse and I are playing phone tag and it's really getting old. She has to be the hardest person to get a hold of. After getting ditch work early Becky and I headed to Monterrey! Amazing as usual. The cheese sauce was perfection along with our chicken chimi's! After stuffing our faces we headed to JC and walked around a bit. Turns out Michael ditched work also and met us for the movie. The movie was pretty fantastic. There were a few parts that I felt were extremely slow but payout was good. There were a few moments that I knew didn't belong but what can you do? Overall it was great and I enjoyed seeing "the darker side" and can't wait till the 2nd part! The rest of the evening I spent with a 3 year old! Michael had to go over to Max's to work till about 9. Jake and I watched a movie and cuddled. It was pretty fantastic! =)

Saturday we awoke early. According to Michael, too early for a Saturday. We headed over to my sisters house to babysit. Her hubby had to work till noon and she was headed off to KC with friends! The kids were all pretty good and the morning flew by! We didn't get home till about 1:30 and Jake went down for a nap. He was extremely tired. We watched as Iowa failed to come up with the win against Ohio State. I honestly was shocked we played as well as we did. Michael and I planned out our list and decided to go grocery shopping that night instead of our usual Sunday. It was an adventure. Even though we went around 7ish, it was still insane. On a good note we got everything but 2 things on our list! We got home and put Jake to bed and proceeded to be lame and go to bed around 10! 

Sunday was typical. Although, we completely slept through church. Ugh. I forgot to set my alarm Saturday night and we woke up a little too late to make it on time. Depressing. We basically stayed at home all day and cleaned, did laundry, played and colored with Jake, watched some football, and zonked. The whole family took a 3 hour nap together and it was heaven! I loved every second of it! Although, we all stayed up later then usual due to that long of a nap. I was suppose to go to Ingrid Michaelson at Prairie Meadows with some friends but I was exhausted. I got the privilege of seeing her earlier this year so I didn't feel too bad. I missed the girl time but Jake honestly, really didn't want me to go anywhere. He has been very "mommy" lately and gets upset if I leave to run an errands or just leave the room period. I think it's the baby and knowing that it's right around the corner. So we had family time which resulted in Michael and Jake dancing for a few hours. That is pure entertainment right there. 

Now I am home for my first official day off work. I sort of don't know what to do with myself currently. Jake is still going to my mom's because the boy is OCD and loves his schedule. We didn't want to break it so Monday-Wednesday he is going there this week. Then it's turkey day! It is the first time in 7 years that we aren't going to Arkansas. It's a weird feeling but I welcome the change. To be at home for once, it will be nice. Other then the year that Michael was in Iraq, this is his first time in about 20 years of not going. We have a good reason and I'm sticking to that! 

I think I'm going to work on some projects. One thing about being home is, day time TV sucks. I've just been listening to music and working through the morning! Zoey is loving me being home. She hasn't left my side or my lap. I am trying to finish up a scarf and it's hard with a pup sitting on your lap!

Well, the day is finally here; tomorrow is my last day at work until 2011. It's surreal and a shock. I'm excited about not having to go into work everyday and being able to be off work for the holidays. I am just going to go in panic mode since the big day is two weeks from Monday. I just have to get through Thanksgiving first. I'm going to miss going in and seeing certain peoples faces everyday. It will be nice to be at home though and be able to take a nap when I want or wear sweats all day! Just being able to have some down time before the baby comes will be great! Time to relax and enjoy some quiet!

Tomorrow is going to be a fantastic day!! I get off work at 10:30, then I am heading to JC for lunch and to take part in the Harry Potter phenomonom! I am pretty excited about this movie! I really wish I would have read the book again. I will definitley read it before June. I just didn't know where they were going to cut the movie off and I hope they don't mess this one up like the Half Blood Prince. We will see tomorrow!

Ummm, hello?!

I ran into someone at work today that I hadn't seen in a long time. I work at 1200 and she works at 1100 so it sort of limits the face to face time. On a grading factor of keeping up with friendship, I receive an F- for this one. We never had any falling outs, just buildings kept us apart and job changes limited our time in seeing one another! Haha. Anyways. We got to talking and she of course asked about Jake and life. Then one of her questions about knocked me on the floor.

"When are you thinking about having another baby? Jake is 3 right? Are you guys wanting anymore kids?!"

Ummmmmmm, what do I say to that? I didn't want to be rude so I was responded "Actually, soon! My last day is Friday and we are set to have him in 2 weeks!"

I honestly could see the "Oh crap" look on her face. She then apologized profusely and said she didn't know or even notice. I told her it was fine and that I don't really talk about it all the time and I was a sucky friend for not emailing her or something. She then asked if she could visit us and I of course said yes. We hugged and went our separate ways.

In the elevator, I was still a little numb. First off, I was wearing a shirt that is what I call a "Hello, how can you not tell I have a giant watermelon harvesting in between my pelvis?" Did she think I just gained a ton of weight in my gut? Oh well. I guess it's an honest mistake. You just don't expect to hear it at 37 weeks. 25 or so, maybe, but not when your time is about ready to pop!

In other news:

I had my doctor appoitment today. I was so lucky enough to have my Strep B test today. Ugh. They also checked my cervix and thank goodness I am not dialated. She said if I was I would have to come in twice a week to check to make sure I don't go early. She said they like to stay ahead of the "time bomb" if it's possible. Since I have a scheduled c-section they try to keep on top of things. She informed me that if I was starting to dialate they might have to push up my c-section date. No thank you. I need the next 2.5 weeks! All worries aside, I wasn't and life is good! I only have 2 appointments left and then it "C Day".

Two days left of work and both are half days! Child side coming out "Suck it Coperate America!" Well, until January 31st! =)

iTunes

It has been my downfall recently. I could spend my paycheck every two weeks on this program. It is getting a little out of hand. It started with downloading Christmas music. Major weakness of mine. I could buy them all. It's horrible. I then found out a love of mine, Josh Groban, was coming out with a new album on Monday. I of course, had to have it. I now need a candle lit room and a bottle of wine to get the full experience. I guess I will have to wait a month for that but the album is still completely fantastic. I love his voice. It's just mezmorizing and makes my heart melt. Glee, another downfall to my wallet. Their holiday album was released this week. Jake is already in love with song #2 and I have made about 7 copies for friends and family. It's bad. I have an obsession with Christmas music. I really do. Plus the weekly downloads from the episode. We will have to see what I purchase next week.

You know you are jealous....

Because I have all of my Christmas shopping done. Yes, done! I have 2 gift cards left but those do not require anything from me! They are Michael's job! This weekend I will attack the wrapping chore! I will have all of them wrapped and under the tree by Sunday! Guarantee it! =)

We put our tree up Sunday night and let it hang out a day until we decorated it. Our new tree is much larger then our older one. Yikes. We don't have enough ornaments to cover it but that is okay. It's still pretty. Jake is obsessed with the train we bought to go underneath it. He wants to play with it every night, all night long. He just loves holding the remote and making it play songs. He yells at Kinnick or Zoey anytime they get too close. It cracks me up. Hawkeye could care less about the tree. I like him for that. Kinnick hides underneath it because he knows Zoey is not allowed within 5 feet of it. That mutt. I tell ya what. Ugh.

Michael still wants to put some lights up outside. He should have done it earlier this week. The weather this weekend does not look friendly for anything outdoors. Maybe Sunday he can get them up. He also said our wreath is "pathetic". What did you say? I do recall last year that I wanted to buy a new one and he replied "We don't need one, ours is fine". Men. I might wait a few more weeks and then get a new one or just wait till after Christmas. I will have to hit those sales to get some more ornaments to fill up the tree.

I got the question I dislike the most at Christmas yesterday. "Well what do you want for Christmas". I think my mom has my name. I have no clue. I hate getting gifts. I know that sounds weird but I have everything I could need. If I want something particular, I usually just go and buy it. Now I have to think over the weekend. Something I dislike doing also. She wants a list and I have a blank sheet of paper currently. I might put "world peace" as the only thing on the list. I don't think she will find it as funny as I would. I am much better as a gift giver then receiver. That is why I never was a fan of bridal/baby showers. One, I hate all that attention. Two, I feel awkward. Thanks to some lovely friends they not only gave me a surprise baby shower a few weeks ago, but did so in a very public place. I still love them though.

I also have finished 2 out of the 4 scarves that are required for Christmas!! I think I about died of shock on Sunday when I was able to cast off on two of them! I am re-doing one due to a mutt (who will remained nameless) that decided to make one her bed and put a little whole in the middle of it. That one was 75% done too. Oh well. I should be able to finish it this weekend! I might make a few extras for friends so we'll see how ambitious I get.

I will like to report my loser status. I am currently going to bed every night between 7:30 and 8:30. I apologize to the text messages that go unresponsive to until the next day, but I found out that it's my prime time to sleep. On the weekends, it gets pushed a little but oh well. Last week of work starts next week. That in itself is absolutely crazy. I have a few half days next week which will be perfect for napping! I cannot wait!

26

That is it. Twenty-six days until our scheduled date. I'm starting to freak out. Not about getting things done but going early. Lately I have been feeling like absolute crap. Headaches, stomach aches, a stead "flow from below" if you get my drift, and just exhaustion. All things that are signs of your body getting ready. Knock it off already! 26 days, just stay in there for 26 more days kid! I beg you! I had a dream last night he came early. That didn't help either. I know it's not up to me but I woud love for him to stay on schedule. Here is to keeping my fingers, among other things, crossed for him to stay put for another 26 days!

Yeah....I need sleep

One of our many text conversations of the day:

Jana: BTW...you are going to coach with me over Christmas. Just sayin!

Me: Coach what? Basketball? Wait, you're here long enough to coach a sport?

(3 minutes later)

Me: Ohhhhh, you mean the store.

I can dream....

I honestly could keep watching these for hours. We have had them saved in our "favorites" folder for a few years because we just are fascinated by them. Jake loves to watch them over and over. I could only dream of being able to do this. Being married to an Electrician, you think I would be able to someday. He already said he knew how it all worked. Something to think about when purchasing our next home. HA! Although, the electric bill would probably be a years salary! I still love watching it though!

Booyah!

I am getting a little excited here! I have honestly got a lot crossed off my list in the past two weeks! I am way proud of myself! I deserve an A for this! Michael cannot believe how fast things are getting done. I can't either!

Friday we finally went around and got our tree! We had about 3 we were looking at and we finally decided on one! I am way excited about it! I love Christmas. It's may favorite season (minus the snow) and I wish it would last a lot longer then it does. I can do without the gifts and that jazz. I just love the meaning, the music, the lights, the movies, the family time, all of it. Anyways, when we went to pick up our tree we also found an awesome train to go around it at the bottom. Jake wants to play with it so bad and gives attitude every time we say "no" and tell him we have to wait till we put up the tree. He was so excited that we bought one though. I know he will love it! We also got a big dent in our Christmas shopping started on Friday. Yes, I know it sounds early, but we have to have it done. I do not want to leave Michael in charge of it come December and I also wouldn't wish that on anyone to have to go out alone for a lot of shopping. We got home after a very productive evening, ate dinner, and I will not lie, crashed. I was exhausted. This week did me in. 

Saturday we got up early as usual, had a fantastic breakfast, hit up Starbucks and went out shopping again! We now only have 2 more kids to buy for and 3 adults! Rock on! Jake is completely done! The sales are insane already. We even got wrapping paper and all the trimmings so I can start on that this week! I figure that if I wrap as I go, it will be a lot easier. David also came home for the first time in 2 months. The kid has been MIA for way too long. He looked like it too. We took Amber's photos in the afternoon and I felt it went pretty well. She didn't want anything "senior pose" like, so it's interesting to get her in her own element. Jeff being there really helped. He got her to laugh at the right times. We then stopped by the rents to check up on them and talk about the Iowa game a little bit. Jake will make any excuse to stop by my parents house. I think it's cute. He is very into my dad right now. He talks about him at home all the time. The boys watched football and played their game the rest of the afternoon. I cleaned. I got 3 more things crossed off my list! Check and mate! We had a pretty low key evening of pizza and a movie. We stayed up later due to gaining an hour of sleep. I tell you what, I could have gone to bed at 9 instead of 11:30. I was beat. 

Sunday we woke early, went to Perkins for a fantastic breakfast, went to church, got our grocery shopping in, and then headed back home. I wish 'falling back' would actually work on kids. Instead of the normal 6:30 wake up call, we got a 5:30. You can't blame the kid, he doesn't understand it yet. Ugh. I wish they did though. This afternoon I got the pantry cleaned out (another item off  my list), filled about 2 body bag trash bags full of junk, and went through all the food in all the cupboards in the house. My dad gave me a call to help with taking some photos in the afternoon so I then decided to finish my 3 loads of laundry and headed out to do that. We had dinner at Michael's parents house. We got a few outfits that Michael wore when he was a baby. It's so cute. I think it will be fun to take a few pictures of Baby J in them. Hopefully they will fit. Michael and David were pretty small for awhile. We will have to see. I also got a sneak peak of Baby J's blanket from Marilyn. Oh my word. Amazing. She went all out. None of the other grandkids have a blanket like this. I love it. I can't wait till I'll be able to have a baby to wrap in it! We finally got home to watch the Packers beat up on the Cowboys. No surprise there. Those Cowboys are sucking it up this year. We took some time to put up our new tree during the beat down. I love it!!! It's taller then our old one, that is for sure. I think I'm going to donate it to Goodwill if we can. I am not sure if they take Christmas trees or not. We will see. I will decorate it during the week this week. I figured we could let it "relax" a little on it's own since it is new this year before we attack it with our decor. I could just sit here and stare at it. It's relaxing. 

Another weekend down, only a few more to go. We are under the 30 day mark. I only have 2 more weeks of work left. That in itself is scary. I am really looking forward to that though! I need naps! I really do. I hit the final hump and now I want to sleep all the time again! Yet, I have so much to do still. Taking it one day at a time!

Politics...they make me want to vomit

I will not shove my beliefs down your throat. Please have the respect to do the same back. I believe what I believe. I have stern convictions with certain topics and whether I go one way or the other, that should not be a reflection on who I am. That is one part of me. I could go into how much I either like or dislike how Tuesdays events unfolded but I won't. I could say how much I loathe/like how the elections 2 years went, but I won't. I don't talk about it because you can't do much to change it once it happens. I do research, I go above and beyond with looking at who I am voting for. I don't vote for someone because the majority does, or because some famous person endorses them or because my boyfriend love them and I am trying to please him. I do it for me and me alone. Yes I grew up in a Christian home and I still hold those beliefs dear to my heart and will always. People who really know me and what I am about, know that I am a Christian first and everything else is branches out from that. We all have different views on how we want the US or even the World to run and we all don't have to agree. Just don't attack people for making changes when you are only one person. You can't make someone vote/believe the way you do. So why bring them down? It just makes you look like a fool. Especially when you blast everything on FB people! Seriously, keep it to yourselves or just tell someone. Don't dump all your feelings on your FB status. Do you know the people that look at that then lose respect? Quite a few. Especially when you start name calling. Just because you voted different then someone else doesn't make you an idiot or an a-hole. Sometimes I wish people would just keep their mouths zipped and move on with life. Not everything can be handed to us they way we want it. That is life. Welcome to it!

Ok that is my rant from today. I have had it up to the 5th floor with talk from both sides today. What happened last night, happened. Not much anyone can do about it so let's move on! I am just thankful we have at least another year off before primary starts for the next round. Ugh. Again, I dislike politics more then anything but I do have my beliefs and I stick with them. Love me or hate me, I am who I am. Nothing is changing that! =)

Major upside! No more polictical ads during football!!! I can live with that!! (I am sure they are on during other TV shows but I record most of my shows so I can fast foward through them!)

Another upside: It's Wednesday! 2 days left of the work week!!

To each his/her own.

Am I pregnant? Didn't realize.

Apparently I don't talk about being pregnant enough. First off, the word "preggo" makes me want to vomit. I hate hearing it, I hate seeing it written out, I dislike the word period. It just sounds...lazy. I don't know. Anyways. It's becoming apparent to people that I am pregnant. I guess that only took 8 months. Come on! I have a round baby gut that has a 4 foot clearance and can wipe out a glass if it's too close to the end of the table. People keep telling me that they just forget I am because I don't talk about. I don't think I need to. Why complain? Why say unnecessary comments to get people to ask questions or remind them I am pregnant? I do not need any extra attention. I am not going to log on to my FB or constantly talk about being pregnant. I am sorry but it gets really old when all people can talk about is being pregnant. I can maybe understand if it's your first, but by your second or third, you should be use to it and not have to complain or comment about everything. The worst for me is when people are only in that 6-16 week mark. They complain about smells, sickness, names, babies sex, how it hasn't hit them yet, and if they just keep saying over and over and over that they are pregnant. I get it if you feel the baby move the first time, you find out the sex, maybe your due date is set, or if people ask. I will ask if I want to know. Somethings are personal and I feel like pregnancy is a pretty private experience. I'm not going to get into every gyno appointment I have so others shouldn't either! I of course tell my close friends about certain "accidents" or little things but I do it to the ones that get me and that I know care. I am not going to ramble on and on to people that either know me at work of via the internet. So yes, I am pregnant. If you haven't figured it out yet, well, it's not big deal. I only have 5 weeks left so bring on the countdown!

I feel like when it rains, it pours. I have a few friends that are just going through some unnecessary life experiences right now. Well, in my opinion they are not needed.

1) I have a dear friend that had a normal uneventful surgery that has turned out to be not even close to uneventful or normal. She doesn't deserve it. Her family, who are amazing, do not need to be put through this either. It's always hard to see a loved on hurting, in pain, sad, feeling like they are going no where. Set backs are never something we like to deal with. You have a plan for something and when it doesn't go through, it's hard to get past it sometimes. I think about my "plan" for this arrival of this baby. I know things happen and there could be difficulties or a change in plans but I still always hope that it will go as is. Jake sure as heck didn't, so maybe this one will be good. A verse that always comes to mind is Matthew 6:34 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Today's trouble is enough for today." It's very true. Today is today, tomorrow is another. We can't predict what is going to happen tomorrow or the next day. We can only have faith no matter what happens, it has a reason and a purpose. Life gives us trials and tribulations for reasons that are unknown. Whether it's to make us appreciate something or to understand someone else's perspective, or just to grow from, we have to have these experiences to make us stronger. Another verse John 14:1 "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me." I continue to pray for her and her family and hope things are starting to look up! I miss her terribly everyday and I can't wait till I am on leave and I can bug her daily, in person!

2) You know those parents that are just awesome? The ones that you strive to be because they just blow your mind? Well I know a few but one in particular because she has gone above and beyond for her kids. She gives the most amazing advice for parenting (among other topics) and is always there to listen or laugh! Lately she has had a giant speed bump in her road. Something she doesn't deserve and that honestly, no one deserves. She is my Mother of the Year nominee every year. You can't control people, which at times I wish we could, but my heart just breaks when someone thinks they have a right to mess up everyones lives because they are selfish. It really comes down to that. I am not going to go into detail about any of this. But she knows that she is loved by so many people and we would all do anything for her and we will always be there for her! She is my Elphaba! I love her so! =)